thinking about all the shitty people i’ve opened up to makes me physically sick it’s so weird to think there are people walking around who don’t deserve to know me like they do/did i want my time back
ADDICTION IS THE FUCKING WORST. WATCHING PEOPLE DESTROY THEMSELVES MAKES ME WANT TO DIE AND I HATE THE DISEASE SO FUCKING MUCH THAT I TAKE IT OUT ON THE PERSON IT’S AFFECTING. I am overfuckingfilled with rage.
Ughhhh I just don’t even know anymore. I need to dig myself a very large hole to crawl into for the rest of my existence I am not strong enough for this shit. I’ve dealt with this my whole life i can’t fucking take it anymore. Where the motherfuckin sober people at!?